On March 29th of this year, he poked a hole in his eye with a sharp object. We've been through it; 3 surgeries, lots of office visits, a 4 day stint in the hospital. All of that and a doc who says he won't ever see again out of that eye. He got an overwhelming infection that just did too much damage too quickly.
It's been a week since we were told he won't see out of his eye again. Probably the most difficult week of my life for sure. I think as a mother, you think you do everything you can to protect them from EVERYTHING. It always seems to be the little inconspicuous things that you miss. Like a night light cover for instance. That's what he poked his eye with. A stinking night light cover!!!! I cannot tell you how the guilt has affected me. It has been like a ton of bricks resting on my chest. To think if I had only removed the stupid thing; this nightmarish roller coaster would have never started. But as I have been reminded these past few days, that is how satan wants me to feel. God on the other hand reminds me that I am not alone in my sadness for my child. That He too went through turmoil and sadness for His son. So slowly, day by day, I am picking myself up off the floor, thanks to my family, my rock of a husband, and of course my God.
We are seeking out second opinions for Landon's eye. We have an appointment with a second retinal specialist on Monday morning. We live in Houston; a major city with the largest medical center in the country. I found out Wed. that there are only 2 retinal specialists that will deal with children in this huge city full of medical professionals. That seems crazy to me. But it's okay. We may have to fly to Rochester University in NY to seek out specialists there. Where ever the wind takes us I guess. If anyone has any suggestions or knows where we can find a pediatric opthamologist that specializes in detached retinas or corneal transplants please let me know. Thanks for letting me vent!
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
John 10:10
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